Ressurection

I can't remember the last time I opened this website. I suppose with the whirlwind of the past few months I have drifted out of touch in more ways than one.

I'll attempt at this juncture to resurrect a blog which has for some time now been barely clinging to life.

I turned 25 a few months ago, and since then I seem to have been facing some sort of epic juncture at which decisions must be made. My future and all that horseshit. I suppose I am just growing tired of this meaningless stagnation which seems to consume my time in the middle kingdom.

So...changes abound. I have fallen in love...yeah for anyone that knows me personally take a moment and let that sit. It's sorta like a knife in the gut. Well it has been for me at least. This whole romantic notion of finding love in a faraway country and then spending endless hours discussing our future and how we will make things work regardless of obstacles in geography, age, employment, etc. It all just makes me want to throw up in my mouth a bit. In my defense though, the past few years I have been a one woman show, and a damn good one. It's a big adjustment for me to encounter. All in all though, I'm not completely hating it. At least not all the time. He's a pretty amazing guy which also helps.

Along with the budding romance the summer has brought so many changes. People leaving, or changing for the worse so the fact that they are still here is meaningless, new faces, new places, and a new found appreciation for those people in my life that I maybe haven't always given the proper credit to.

I suppose all in all this is shaping up to be the summer I finally do some growing up. I suppose in some ways I have done it already, but now is a good time to catch up those aspects of my life where maturity is lagging. Of course this maturity still comes with a bottle of Jack, promiscuous sex (with my boyfriend and anyone else we may agree on), and dancing on bars till the wee hours of the morning...I mean growing up doesn't have to be boring...right??

Ciao

Catching up,..

So I am pretty terrible at this whole blogging thing. Seeing as my day no longer involves coutless hours at the computer I have been finding it difficult to sit down and write anything of value lately.

I am continuing to not write anything of value with this post, however I am taking time out of my day to share it.

Many things have been happening, good, bad, ugly, a bit of everything all rolled up in seemingly endless rainy weather with a chaser of Jack Daniels.

I have been pondering leaving China. I suppose I do this about once every 3 months, but this time I actually sought out some new jobs, made some plans, felt like I was almost committed to change. Of course I am not going anywhere. I am actually about to sign a new lease which will mean one more year in this concrete jungle, taking in all the sights, sounds and occurrence that have lost their novel appeal and now just annoy me.

I have discovered that all the little idiosyncrasies I once found a bit charming about this place now just bore and sometimes disgust me. The complete absence of traffic laws, people pulling over to take a dump on the side of the road. I'm all for being culturally sensitive but I firmly believe such sensitivites should draw the line on behavior which could endanger others.

Anyway I'm frusterated...but I suppose it keeps me cynical.

I've been working more, doing lots of odd jobs which means a crazy schedule. I rather like not having the 9-5 thing though, its wonderful to never have anything scheduled before noon. I have a sense of freedom now which has been glaringly absent in recent years.

Anyway I can't think of much more to say at the moment. life is going ok, been rather bored these few weeks as the weather has me holed up inside. Hopefully some sunshine will bless China with its presence in the near future and I will consider leaving the house.

Oh, and we got a fucking Burger King. I feel like this is progress. Maybe traffic laws will follow...but probably not.

Ciao

So it has actually been two months since I updated this thing, and to be quite honest I really could care less. I have been super busy for the last like month and if you combine that with all the drinking it puts me back about 2 months.

Anyfuckery... back to blogging.

So a lot is going on. I came back to China last month. I feel like I say that at least 4 times a year lately. It's like I keep trying to leave and then I just end up back in this shitstorm, I'll probably still be here when I'm 30. That is terrifying.

I am working a lot now though, which is good since i have quite the expensive lifestyle. I started a new part time marketing job for Join In Media, and I am teaching mad hours as well. It kind of means I work all the time, but let's face it there really isn't much else to do around here.

My bestie leaves for America today which makes me sad. She is moving in with her boyfriend which makes me want to throw up in my mouth a bit too.

Well that's it for updtes time to tech and then I'm off to a Christmas ball. Yeah I have a rough life..

Xoxo

Leaving on a jetplane

Well I left for my US trip on the 16th and I had quite an interesting 36 hours in between Shanghai and Bozeman. The first was of course, the Chinese lady on the airplane with me. This woman who was caddy-corner from me was standing up and removing and replacing stuff from the overhead compartments for pretty much the entire journey. Well as the flight neared our destination the flight attendent informed the woman that she needed to put her bags in the overhead compartment and not on the seat beside her. Then 10 minutes later another person told her, in English and Chinese. Still 10 minutes later another flight attendent came by and discovered that the woman had, instead of putting the items away, set them in an empty seat and covered them with a blanket to hide them from the flight attendents. Seriously, and this woman was pissed when she finally had to stand up and place them in the overhead compartment.

In other excitment I enjoyed some delicious Taco Bell in the Denver airport, and some amazing bloody marys in San Fran. Damn I miss America.

I finally made it to Montana with my Mom and surprised my little brother which was awesome. So I suppose all the travel was worth it.

Bye bye job

Well my oh my I have sure taken my time in updating this thing, so much has happened and I have just not had a moment to sit and type lately. I suppose I should start where I left off and then work my way to the present day.

Well the first big news is, I am now unemployed. I was told about a week and a half ago that they were eliminating the marketing department at Dextrys since there is nothing for us to do during these times of economic crisis. (Thank you Mr. Bush and everyone who signed the bailout plan).

So anybrokeass, I am now unemployed. I am teaching part time, and took on some more hours but that is obviously not a permanent solution. Hopefully I find a job soon, but it may mean leaving China, so I am anticipating change in the next few months.

Moving on up..Chinese style

So I moved yesterday. As someone who has lived in 3 countries and 4 cities in the last two years, I am fairly skilled in this department. So yesterday I woke up early and finished packing, only to discover that I own wayyyy to much stuff. Anyway my ayi and I packed everything and a friend came to translate. So the three of us and the driver of a small 3 wheeled truck apparatus carried about half of my belongings down the stairs, loaded them up and then caravaned down the road on the bike lane until we reached my new apartment. We moved everything in and went back for the second load.

We finished the second load and attempted to exit the compound only to be greeted by guards. The guards informed me that I could not move out because I needed the signed release from the landlord. However, the signed release is given after the final utilities are paid and the empty house is checked out for damages...the empty house. So we explained to them that I wanted to drop my stuff off and was going to then do the checkout, no dice.. They directed me to an office where I was informed that since the final water bill (which ended up being 158) had not been calculated the only way I could leave would be to pay 2800 as a deposit and then come back. In the end I agreed to stay and the maid and driver took everything to the new house and moved me in. Thank God for domestic help.

Three hours later the whole thing was resolved and I was unpacking and grocery shopping with my new roomie. An exhausting day overall, and in the grand tradition on China, insanely more complicated than it needed to be.

Back to work

Well it has been a while since I updated this and quite frankly I haven't missed it. I have instead been throughly enjoying my week off. Here's a basic breakdown of what I did this week:

Shopping
Going to restaurants with friends
Bar hopping
Facials, massages, manis, pedis, pampering
Sleeping
Sexy times

Yeah it was pretty much as awesome week pretty much the same as all my other weeks, but no working in between.

So anyway today I am back in the office, wishing I wasn't, and exhausted from yesterday as it was incredibly long. Ten more days till my next vacation though, so I think I'll live.

Ciao